wala, wala naman..

by: dejas

PERPEKTO
Dong Abay

ikaw ay nagdaramdam,
puso ay nagdurugo..
hindi mo yata alam kung san ka patungo.

ikaw ay naliligaw , isip ay nalilito ..
ayaw mo ng gumalaw, hindi ka sigurado..


ikaw ay napupuwing, minsan nabubulagan..
mata ay nakapiring - daan ay kadiliman.

ikaw ay nadadapa, napipilayan din ..

di makapagsalita
anung ibig sabihin?


wala, wala namang...
wala namang perpektong tao..
ano ba ang epekto
kung meron kang depekto?


ikaw ay nawawala, minsan ay nawawalan..
di ka naniniwala, puno ng alinlangan.

ikaw ay nanliliit ..
ligtas ka ba sa rehas ?

bakit ka nakapiit?
bakit ka tumatakas?


ikaw ay natatakot,
parang walang hangganan..

ang kirot ng bangungot
di mo makalimutan ..

ikaw ay nanlulumo
bilang na ba ang araw?

gusto mo ng sumuko,
mundo ay nagugunaw..

ikaw ay inaalon,
walang kalaban-laban..
tuluyang nalulunod tungo sa kalaliman..

ikaw ay nalulula, agad kang nahuhulog..
..babagsak sa lupa, at biglang madudurog.


ikaw ay nagdurusa, kaya pa bang tumagal?
hindi na makahinga, lalo pang nasasakal.
ikaw ay dumadaing , dala mo ba ay sumpa ?

para kang ililibing at ipinagluluksa...


wala...
wala namang...
wala namang perpekto..

anu ba ang epekto,
kung meron kang depekto?

wala namang perpektong tao...

the best video list ever

OMG.

finally found it.
the complete set.
episodes 1-49.

go boards!

been gone for so long..
(ala kc connection,hahaha)
a lot have happened the past months..
and i'm happy..

people touched..
new friends..
school.

the peace.
and turbulence.
the cold and heat.

loved it.
lovin it.
will love it.

everything seems to be at my hand now..
focused.
not losin' control.




grace under pressure.


*i've updated my -oh-so-old-activity-deficient-blog on multiply just now:


DISSOLUTION AS AN ANGEL


*winks!

pustahan.

ajah frah e fyc y mem get..
drec ec fryd e ymfyoc tet frah e fyc yvnyet...
frah e's eh dra tyng..
yht clynat..

e zicd lmuca so aoac..
yht cdub sujehk.

cdub pnaydreh..
cdub dymgeh..

zicd hud sujeh..
hud pnaydreh...


rymd.




e tuh'd ghuf fryd du tu huf..

e sekrd yc famm...

hud tu yhodreh.


rynt lruucehk..
lyh'd teclanh..

ajanodreh'c pminno.


e fuh'd lruuca.

hu.

hear it.. i'm screamin it..

handling it to you..

jahkayhla ec y tecr pacd canjat lumt..

ela

mamatay kana.. hehe!

dyhk ehy su!

yougu hy dymyky! yryryr!!

sysihtug gy hy myhk! byhkad!


ipagpaumanhin nyo.. mawawala din ako sa mode na toh..

=)


nga pala, thanks chief for making this vector art.. =)

1000 funtc, cah hu gudupy fy

syrym byneh gedy...

drec ec uin mycd lryhla..

uha mycd dno...


sept 17 2007

nagugutom ako..

fymy myhk.. ebubucd gu du tyrem kicdu gu hy pinyreh cy ygehk ehpuq..
pyged hkyouh su by hyecebyhk syhmekyf? te hgu sygigiry hk sky cymedy su..
kyoihbysyh.. cunno. ecyhk hybygymygehk cunno cyi..
RIME HY YHK MYRYD!
gca behygyfymyh su by gu.. pyd ryrypum rypum gy by hkyouh?? yhi gyemyhkyh su?? rsbb..
YOUGU HY CYOU!

rana'c ouin buas.. bycymysyd gy pehmuk gu by du.. ryryry
sept 13, 2007 18:33

---e tnaysat uv oui cu silr dryd e lyh'd paydra..ajah druikr e's cabynydat fedr oui , fro tu e cdemm vaam mega e's eh oui ynsc? Frah e mecdah, e rayn ouin raynd payd.. E's dra uhmo uha eh dra fumt dryd raync dryd cuiht.. frah e's ymuha, e aymmo lranecr dymgehk du oui so ruhao ajah druikr ed'c ypuid vuumecr drehkc.. E muja oui cu silr dryd e lyh'd pnaydra..So mesed ec cdemm vyn yfyo.. Bmayca knyhd sa drec muja....

too late

some things are not meant to be..

..

oil and water.. (wenks may emulsifier)
hollows and death gods..

nagkulang ka, sumobra naman ako. 'di sakto.


hmm..
whatever!!
i hope this is the last time that i blog about this..

but..

thank God it's over!



bitter strawberry
(+ allei+)

out of the grayness in my head..

still i can't patch things together now,
with these eyes now clearly seeing black and white..

i tried my best,
now there is nothing i can do for you..

the way i used to be,
something has touched my heart..
something which made me feel content,
something which is now gone..

did i understand myself?
i didn't.

did i understand you?
i did..
but it's just too late now..


i never meant to hurt you,
i was running from emotions i wasn't ready for..

"please don't go.."

but you did.
and left me here..

i once thought that by forgiving we are forgiven..
you proved me wrong..

i tried my best,
and there is nothing i can do now..


i guess i just loved you too much.

____________________
shak


This happiness that I feel..
all the friends that I have here, you the best present..
I am blessed because you're always by my side..
Surely things that I have accomplished here,
those things too, give me strength..
But your support has helped me endlessly..
thank you.

you were always there at my relief..
nobody ever understood me the way you do..
i hope this friendship never ends..

well, i wish you all the good things in life, if not the best..
i know we'll be okay soon..
i can sense happiness getting near..
the best things coming..
no more pain.


Love and Smile always..
Happy birthday shak..

stars..

waiting for the moon..

the antidote worked.. =D

i was forgiven..




i can feel the wind blow in this place..

where i see the stars beyond the window pane..
shining so bright, here in this night..
here i feel a sense of love..

deep in my heart i cry for you,
every tear that falls feels like a wound..
the stars in the skies gently shines..
taking away my pain..


i hear a voice gently saying "don't be afraid"
i feel a warmth come over me,
as i sleep in their embrace..

i do have the strength to go on...
now i'll try to hold on.. with you..
i know this love is worth something...


even though our dreams don't come true at this point in time,
i'll just remember every moment with you..


like the stars that shine forever,

i'll treasure my love for you.


'till then..






.. after 16 hours..

i guess i wasn't forgiven after all..