unsaid

"Silence is a language God can speak without being constantly interrupted because God is a mystery of incomprehensible love, and love speaks for itself. If we could really be attentive to the mystery of God in our lives we would realize that God is both beyond our thoughts and imaginations (although these can bring us closer to God) and very near to us. As St. Augustine indicated, God is closer to us than we are to ourselves. God is a mystery of silence and intimacy." - Ilia Delio, The Humility of God



wala lang.

christmas nah.. at naaalala ko.. ikaw.
RENT.
wala akong masabi.. isang taon na kitang di nakikita..

i remember..
the deliberation day..
that morning that i came for you...

your smile that never failed to annoy me..
..inside, it made me happy.

i remember..
the songs you used to sing for me.
the days we've shared,
laughing as we went..


i've always shown hate for your pranks..
ignored you..the things you've done for me..
to love you..


i remember..
when we stayed.. at that gambrel roof..
we just sat..
for the hours that have passed by..

i told my story
as you wept..


and i'm dearly sorry.

for the shit I've put you through..
for wasting your time.
for being so numb.
for choosing to be blind.
for being a liar.
for hurting myself.
for everything.


ayu..

because it's like goodbye forever..
and too sad...
if i can be born again some day..
i'll start a journey to seek for you.

the moment to begin a journey,
must be my own choice..

by a new and unfamiliar view..
when i happened to be puzzled..
a gentle wind just like you,
blew by me.

i wanted to say i love you..

i couldn't say it..
but i feel what seems to be the biggest lie..
and the truth..

are the same.




melodies of life~

In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me.
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name.
In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me ?

If I should leave this lonely world behind,
Your voice will still remember our melody.
Now I know we'll carry on.
Melodies of life,
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts, as long as we remember....

trial and error session over

- Hi Barbie!
- Hi Ken!
- You wanna go for a ride?
- Sure, Ken!
- Jump in!
- Ha ha ha ha!

Make me walk, make me talk, do whatever you please
I can act like a star, I can beg on my knees
Come jump in, be my friend, let us do it again
Hit the town, fool around, let's go party


I'm a blonde single girl in the fantasy world
Dress me up, take your time, I'm your dollie
You're my doll, rock and roll, feel the glamour and pain
Kiss me here, touch me there, hanky-panky

Make me walk, make me talk, do whatever you please
I can act like a star, I can beg on my knees
Come jump in, be my friend, let us do it again
Hit the town, fool around, let's go party

You can touch, you can play
You can say I'm always yours.

im sorry, IM NOT A BARBIE GIRL. HAHAHA.



-adrienne-

I've been thinking about you, my love
And all the crazy things that you put me through..

all the while i showered you with trust and promises..

.....treated you like a shining star
But in my sky all burnt out you are..

I gave you all that I had to give,
but it never seemed to reach you..
once again, you used me up.

and I'll have the last laugh,
'cause I know you're gonna end up all alone..

So take these words, some good advice,
all you've done's gonna come back twice.

You never cared how much it hurt,
I really need to tell you..

All you've done's gonna come back twice.

"there's a time that each and everyone of us hurts others.
and even how hard we try to recover things, it just keeps on getting worse.

once you've done your part and not a thing changes, relax.

it's about time for others to do their part,
besides, a lil bit of pride won't kill."

tag tag tag tag... ecchi

1:23 am

pagod na mata ko..
pero nais kong sumulat..
kahit sa huling pagkakataon dito sa url na 'to....(baka, maybe)


december 10 2007
4 am -gising luto kain ligo ayos bihis
6- punta hospital,at nakipagChika sa head nurse dun..
6:30- balik bahay. ket? P.M. shift pala ako. hahaha.. hay.. kamusta naman? thrice na nangyari sa'kin toh..
(excited kc makita si MisterYu R.N.)- isang kilabot na C.I. .. blah.. parang bading eh.. pero fafa talaga.. harhar




pumasok sa maling oras ng duty.. hehehe.. gayunpaman, masaya ako..
minsan nalang ako makakita ng umagang malamig eh. malamig na mainit.. mainit sa loob.. malamig sa labas..
parang hot fudge sundae.. kabaligtaran pala..
nonsensical.


grrhh..
anyways,
pagbalik sa bahay eh nanOd ako ng Binchotan at Puguryu..
hahaha.. kung gusto mong maluha sa kakatawa ay panoorin mo ang ikalawa.. dali!
ang weird na pandak na maid robot na hubad.. at kung anu-ano ang kinakain.. @@
nakapanod din pala ako ng konting ecchi. anu yun? ewan. hehehe

katuwa. 1230 hospital ulit. ako volunteer leader kanina sa duty.. kaya wala akong pasyente. hahaha..
so ang ginawa ko.. champre mga kailangang gawin ng leader.... at makipagChikahan kay genenenen da baby..
kwentuhan namin ang lovelife nya.. at kung gaano katakaw ang Gf nya.. at..
haahaha.. ewan.. tutulungan ko xa gumawa ng artwork..
champre, panRegalo namin sa Gf nya.. este panregalo nya sa Gf nya.. hehe..
cnu pa tatawagin ko sa mga ganung bagay?

tama na.. baka kung ano pa maisulat ko.. wee.. @@ miss you.
sumulat ako dahil.........................................


i've been tagged!
i've been tagged by cedeux..
at pauunlakan ko toh..


ayan. hehe



Direction:
1. Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
2. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below).
3. Pick your month of birth.
4. Highlight the traits that apply to you.
5. Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving acomment for them.
6. Let the person who tagged you.

AUGUST 31 1987

AUGUST:

Loves to joke. -agreed.. my jokes are always used purposively though..

Attractive. - don't know.. i'm not a magnet.

Suave and caring. -depends.. hehe

Brave and fearless.- fearless to the point of stupidity i guess..

Firm and has leadership qualities. - don't know.

Knows how to console others. - yes.. hehe!

Too generous and egoistic. - 75%???

Takes high pride in oneself. - humbling..

Thirsty for praises. -noOoope.

Extraordinary spirit. - lost soul daw? hahaha.. or a spirit out of control.

Easily angered. -yes.

Angry when provoked. -no. (contradicting ba?)

Easily jealous. -YES

Observant.- i notice everything.. hihihi

Careful and cautious. - cautious but not careful.

Thinks quickly. - yes, i think so.. bursts

Independent thoughts. - i always console others.. kinukulit ko.. pinapasakit ko ulo..
but then in the end what i want is what i do. hehehe. stubborn

Loves to lead and to be led. - yaz.. both.

Loves to dream. - i'm full of them.

Talented in the arts, music and defense. - sketching, guitar and taekwondo naba yan? =)

Sensitive but not petty.-yes. super sensitive but not petty.

Poor resistance against illnesses. -illnesses of the mind..

Learns to relax. -nah..

Hasty and trusty. -yes.

Romantic. -nope.

Loving and caring. -yup.

Loves to make friends.- depends... hehe


ayan. i finished the whole thing nah.. i'm gonna go..
to slumber kingdom....
weee..





The others..


JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.


FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.



MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.



APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.



MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.


JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.


JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.



AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.


SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.


OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.


NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.


DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.


i will tag....

hayasaki,
chichi ,
bombero king,
kingdaddyrich,
russ,
nurse ruff,
michael,
gerald,
billybog, and fionixe...

wala, wala naman..

by: dejas

PERPEKTO
Dong Abay

ikaw ay nagdaramdam,
puso ay nagdurugo..
hindi mo yata alam kung san ka patungo.

ikaw ay naliligaw , isip ay nalilito ..
ayaw mo ng gumalaw, hindi ka sigurado..


ikaw ay napupuwing, minsan nabubulagan..
mata ay nakapiring - daan ay kadiliman.

ikaw ay nadadapa, napipilayan din ..

di makapagsalita
anung ibig sabihin?


wala, wala namang...
wala namang perpektong tao..
ano ba ang epekto
kung meron kang depekto?


ikaw ay nawawala, minsan ay nawawalan..
di ka naniniwala, puno ng alinlangan.

ikaw ay nanliliit ..
ligtas ka ba sa rehas ?

bakit ka nakapiit?
bakit ka tumatakas?


ikaw ay natatakot,
parang walang hangganan..

ang kirot ng bangungot
di mo makalimutan ..

ikaw ay nanlulumo
bilang na ba ang araw?

gusto mo ng sumuko,
mundo ay nagugunaw..

ikaw ay inaalon,
walang kalaban-laban..
tuluyang nalulunod tungo sa kalaliman..

ikaw ay nalulula, agad kang nahuhulog..
..babagsak sa lupa, at biglang madudurog.


ikaw ay nagdurusa, kaya pa bang tumagal?
hindi na makahinga, lalo pang nasasakal.
ikaw ay dumadaing , dala mo ba ay sumpa ?

para kang ililibing at ipinagluluksa...


wala...
wala namang...
wala namang perpekto..

anu ba ang epekto,
kung meron kang depekto?

wala namang perpektong tao...

the best video list ever

OMG.

finally found it.
the complete set.
episodes 1-49.

go boards!

been gone for so long..
(ala kc connection,hahaha)
a lot have happened the past months..
and i'm happy..

people touched..
new friends..
school.

the peace.
and turbulence.
the cold and heat.

loved it.
lovin it.
will love it.

everything seems to be at my hand now..
focused.
not losin' control.




grace under pressure.


*i've updated my -oh-so-old-activity-deficient-blog on multiply just now:


DISSOLUTION AS AN ANGEL


*winks!